婷婷玉立
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ' 5:35 PM
OH NO THERE IS HAIR ON TOP OF MY MOUTH!!! But i think i want to keep it because Harima Kenji from 'School Rumble' also has a mustache.
ARGH i just made myself looked retarded in class today. I said 'hi' to C not once but twice consecutively, and i didn't wait for her reply then i went off immediately! The "Sandman" and "owner-of-diary" was busy talking to her and i hoped she did not realised i was 'monkeying' around. Moreover i have so many chances to say 'hi' to her before i didn't realise the chances that were present back then. I ought to kill myself for that ( I need to consult TingKang on how to slash wrist...). Oh damn that adds another entry to the long list of things that i regret doing in life.
ARGH what is this emotion i am feeling ?! I felt so weak being not able to go up to her with ease and talk naturally. I am kinda getting irritated by this inferiority. If i had an other self, ( i am trying to portray myself as kurosaki Ichigo (ichigo means strawberry in japanese and it's PinK!) who has a 'white' part of himself) it would be standing at the side sneering and mocking at myself.
I did some soul-searching ( not using Google of course ) and i think it would just be alright to just gaze at her ravishing beauty from some distance and let my heart be sublimed, because i think this emotion will finally go away in like, 10 years time. Yes, i said years.
Yosh.. ALRIGHT thanks for sharing this feeling with me. It's back to some serious business.
After school today SOMEONE told me that some girl called Laura thought C was her. I hoped i heard it wrongly. Oh come on i wrote so many descriptions about C in my blog posts that it is almost obvious who she is? (That reminds me, i need to remove all obvious hints in this blog already since my reputation is at stake)
Or she thought she has a 'C'? But it doesn't look like it's a 3 inch to me. Sorry to be crude if you are reading this, because, well, this is kinda like my blog, so...
Ok i shouldn't really get to agitated about this. To simplify or factorise, C isn't Choo Laura because i am not a family breaker. It would be at least a little convincing if people thought C was Choo TingKang.
Relax, relax, relax.
OH i can't feel relaxed ! Today i went to the class cupboard to get a dictionary to do some English work. But i thought i would just look for C's dictionary and get some 'psychological power' from it.
But it was no where to be found! I felt so loss. I felt so helpless.
I screamed,"Oh no now what will give me my much needed psychological POWER ?!!"
Did someone took her dictionary?
Oh shit i think i am getting a little bit crazy like someone who sits beside Barrie.
Ok, relax, simmer, focus, control. I can turn back to my usual happy-go-lucky attitude.
Went to have pepper for lunch with Marcus Leo, Joel and Barrie this afternoon. If you do not get it, it means pepper lunch. They decided to have group study at the drive-thru macdoanld's. Half-way through the self-study they were listening to their music with their earpieces. Though they could still listen to any conversations, i am kinda skeptical and cynical that this form of group studying will work. So, when Clinton joined us later i decided to leave. Also partly because the table is a 4-seater.
I thought Marcus Leo would notice my 1.5m long ( estimated to be of audrey's (a.k.a. SAF) or koonling's height) convertible headphones. Oh well.
I guess my above paragraph will explain why this post is so late.
And i kinda expect how people will react in class tomorrow if they read this post. This is exciting.
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
