I wish myself a happy CHINESE YEAR NEW.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ' 4:07 PM
Don't ask why is the title like that. Figure it out yourself.
I am so glad i am in school. I gazed at C for yet another day. I heard her soothing laughter in class today. But obviously not by anything said or anything i done. I think is by the people i grouped as the 'Landers'. I wished i had better hearing then, so i would have heard what the joke was about.
On the other hand i am abit glad my hearing isn't so good this afternoon in school. During the SSRP (you pronounced this magical yet damned word as how you spelled it) period for Physics today i was sitting at my seat and then 2 tables in front there was this girl(i do not know whether i should refer her as a girl but..), lets called her Luffy (try and figure it out yourself), she was sitting ON THE TABLE. Oh my goodness i just hate girls who sit on tables. Yeah, i know they wear something like FBTs in there but still, it is a major source of distraction to me as i am trying to concentrate on my Chemistry TYS. To make matters worse, her group of friends there are talking about something that makes normal people ( i am not normal ), guys especially, to say "uhh~". If you don't know what i mean or "uhh~" is, try saying out "uhh~" many times.
But luckily i can't hear much of what they are talking.
Hey you may not realise it but, the previous chunk of complains are disorganised and random and 'just a thought', so don't take it so seriously.
Back to the main topic i want to 'ramble' about...
Today in bus i saw a visually handicapped ( i don't wanna say the word 'blind') man trying to alight the bus. Then to his right i saw a lady whom i think is a total stranger to the v h man helping him alighting. So i was wondering if there are also many people who will have that graciousness as well. ( i kinda hate this word called "Grace", but i wouldn't relate gracefulness or graciousness to that cursed word, or name )
I remembered MM Lee saying something like " I may not live long to see it, maybe you will, i wish you luck." about graciousness in Singapore if i am not wrong.
I agree. If i would ask myself if i would ever clean up abit in the table of the hawker centre after i finish eating, i would say "I wanted to, but what if some ungrateful people or some gangsters or hokkien spewing people or smokers come and sit at my seat after i left? I wouldn't want to clean up for them."
And on Monday i saw this girl lying face down on the floor in the middle of the pathway in the void deck. I do not know whether you call it sprawling but i think she might have something wrong in her head ( 2 ways of interpretations, might be literally or she might be, er... ) judging by her hairstyle and backview and she might lay there on purpose. There are 2 passer-bys too, they act like they never see her. So i thought i would leave it be and go since i am already late for my tuition.
However, after a while i felt abit of guilt for not offering help. And that i couldn't believe i would just leave someone there, regardless whether she is really dying or not, just because other people do not help also. I think this is what you call "Society pressure". If you were to help a handicapped person or donate to the handicapped street performer or even buy 4 tissues from the wheelchair-bound man in AMK mrt, you would be looked at in a strange way by the public. Then you will feel like they are saying things bad about you.
Or maybe it is my hate towards those 'complaining aunties' who would only post mostly nonsense the 'Forums' section of The Straits Times and also only after something big has happened then they start criticizing complaining flame etc. about what the government has done. Take for example some construction building or expressway collapse then those people start to say mindless things. You mean, we shouldn't enforce or improve things when nothing happens? Moreover, something this big has happened you mean the ministry or companies will just leave the matter be?
Yeah i know this opinion is one-sided but i need to vent my hate against those 'complaining aunties' who think they are so good because they are educated that they started showing their displeasure at people not moving to the rear of the bus when it is enough when they are being told nicely to do that.
Alright, alright. Let's get to something more delighting. Oh, C. I can't stop daydreaming (not that pervert kind) about you. When you face in my direction ( regardless if you are really looking at me or not ) I felt my heart kinda ache because it cannot beat fast enough.
Oh, man. Talk about mushy mushrooms. Now the atmosphere is light now eh?
Which reminds me. Damn TingKang has some secrets that cannot tell me. He said the secret is something about me and Dinie knows it too. He also said if i got 90% for any subject he would tell me. So, i think my bet would be my A.maths, since it is the easiest subject for me. ( E.maths isn't, it is not straightforward and is boring )
The suspense is killing me. But hey, i cannot be thinking so much aobut this, since he will enjoy it more. So i won't complain, not in this blog.
Oh yeah i just remembered. Damn it why did i have a bad stomach ache just before PE... I have to walk with Shermaine up to class to unlock the class door for me to get my PE attire, together. I was so afraid that tongues will start to wag.
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
