C-nile
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 ' 4:23 PM
MAJOR EDIT AT 6.48pm : CHANGED !! I am still trying to find flaws in my blog template, so be patient and lie in hospital bed !
MAJOR EDIT AT 6.25pm : I planned to change a new blog skin now, so expect to see cock-ups in my profile, or none at all since i am still deciding if i have enough time to change the template coding before my brother comes back. Oh, and the blog skin i have chosen is created by someone who has the same name as C...
It felt kinda warm seeing strangers tagging.
Hmm, does long posts make them boring?
If so, i gotta stay focused and concentrate all my remaining mental strength on C and C alone.
i don't know when i will go crazy and become C-nile...
Oh wow i was in the same bus as DishEng today on the way home again. Call it fate lah DishEng, there is no point running so fast at the start when we met outside Dream Studio then finally still met me back at the bus stop.
Hmm, fate... Fate isn't a nice word, since there is no letter "C" in "fate".
It felt kinda cool ( not in terms of temperature ) in the bus because when i close my eyes while listening through my Sennheiser i could see quite clear image of C in my mind. Maybe it's the song played at that time, because i cannot do the same now.
I need to take quite "extreme" moves now since it's 3 more days till i turn insane after the Farewell assembly when i don't get to see C anymore till next Wednesday for the time-wasting Science Practical exam(Phy/Bio combined, the best and easiest combination ) for 'O' levels. And then it will be irreversible.
"Quite "extreme" moves" would include shifting mine and TingKang's table a little to the left or right and not paying much attention to Mr.Chow ( the lame Physics teacher who made me lose interest in Physics) in class to gaze at C till TingKang cannot take it and went to sit behind Vanessa ( as in 1 table behind, nothing else, i said that because the image of what Barrie likes to do in the past came to my mind ).
"Quite "extreme" moves" also include asking SOMEONE to snap a million picture of C with his phone, preferably during the Farewell assembly, since my own phone was spoiled ( damn you Samsung how long are you gonna take to open up my L760 ), and also i wouldn't want to ask Joel even he has a 8000000 pixels camera with his QH phone, as Barrie would say quite often ( about Joel's QH phone.)
I wouldn't ask Joel obviously as it would be kinda awkward. Since i am not an adult yet, so i can't be an ADULTERER without becoming an adult first. ( i am really 15, my birthday is really far away)
Alright don't mind me, my leg kinda ache and i need to pull some legs.
I don't know if i should gaze at her without limit for my remaining days. Without limit would mean continue to stare into her eyes even when she notices my strange pair of eyes with a strange pair purple spectacles zooming into her direction.
Then she will mouth the word "Pervert"...
I think i am going to bring a pair of binoculars tomorrow. BUT !! There is some guy blocking my view ah. Binoculars seemed insufficient.
And besides, WHERE EXACTLY IS HER DICTIONARY/THESAURUS ??? It is one of the few things that can stabilise my emotions. If not, i would be like in P.E. lesson today where i became more aggressive than usual during the final floorball match today.
I saw our team on the verge on losing with the score of like 3-2 when i accidentally let 1 ball in when it was 2-2 because i was stunned by C's elegant mannerism over at the volleyball court at that time.
Then i felt my own facial expression changing, probably because i wanted to win so much, but in the end, i didn't plan ahead and got intercepted by Yew Hwang when i was dribbling that damned small white ball.
I got kinda rough and kicked the damned small white ball away from Yew Hwang when i was the goalkeeper as if that damned small white ball was a soccer ball. I hope i didn't injure him badly.
Well, at least that match ended with a score of 4-4, which is an unlucky number. It is not unlucky because "4" in Mandarin sounds the same as "Death".
That class was really unlucky.
Ah, i think my handsome face was kinda scarred by WeiBoon's "any-how" shot which hit my left face. I toppled, strangely enough since it is just a damned small white ball. I guess i was attracting attention back then.
Some people were kind enough to shout , " EH, netball netball, Jack-san need netballs !"
Oh, maybe i heard it wrongly, they might have said " EH, Nat ! Ball! Oh, Nat's Ball !"
And it seems like i am "smiling" widely for many times today, and also yesterday.
Well, if i had my phone, i would have posted some pictures of myself.
CURSE YOU Samsung.
Now i need to figure out how to take picture of C's hair because i thought of showing her hairstyle to my favourite hair-dresser and see if she can reproduce the same hairstyle on me too.
Oh, man. I should have bought a pair of black glasses that C wore before instead of this purple pair of spectacles that i think only Kaisheng will like.
( I can't really tell if those people who came up to me and said, "Hey, nice specs." are really being sarcastic or not. Sarcastic means satire, and it means masking your intended message with words that are opposite of what you really mean, in a mockery way. So, i wasn't being sarcastic many posts ago.)
I don't know if ear-piercing is painful and troublesome or not, so i don't know if i should get an exact same pair of earring that C is wearing now.
Oh, wait why am i saying all these? I must control these maniac-ness.
Oh, man. Suddenly all the flashbacks of what i had did in the past are coming back to me slowly one by one now.
ARGH !! I honestly regret eating that free bread from 'Trikstrohs' during the "Rag-and-bone" school CIP that we did which was to collect newspapers. I think it was last year.
And ARGH !! I also regretted venting my own frustrations and anger on Qian Hui by saying those hateful words to her during the lesson on knots ( which i WAS supposed to specialise in, i really hated knot-tying because i need to focus a lot to tie that damned small thingy with my big hands ) when she offered to help to revive my dead knot at the Cugc camp 2006. ( I only attended 1 year of Cugc, because it is mindless and senseless, and also because NCC AIR is corrupted )
She must have hated me since then, because she mentioned in her blog ( i think ) that she don't like "chauvinist pigs".
I don't know if i will feel more regrets coming to me. So, stay tuned to the previous paragraph till 7pm.
Oh, and isn't today's post lengthy today? Argh, i spent like 2 hours blogging for today already...
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
