DINIE faster faster !!
Friday, October 10, 2008 ' 6:02 PM
Before i start, i want to apologise to Yanling, Jiaqi and also laura for accidentally spilling my fruit punch near them. I hope i won't be deemed as a criminal.
YES !!!!
It was a success. Er, wait, was it? I kinda picked the wrong time to ask C to take a picture together. It was when all of us are crying for some devil called seperation, after we saw all the videos made by our fellow classmates, and also by our teachers, and not forgetting the speeches made by Samantha and our principal.
Did i add myself to C 's hate list for not being sensitive to her feellings? ( but i always am, i mentioned before that i was always affected people's emotions around me)
OH MY GOODNESS !! Why did i make this blunder. But i couldn't bring myself to ask during the first photo-taking session today when Mdm. Chong treated us to the final pizza lunch in school today before the assembly. I'll have to hate myself for taking so long to be mentally prepared.
But in the end the act was still completed. I need to wait for Dinie to send me the pictures so i could see how C was smiling ( or frowning ) to determine the level of success.
I tried to cry during the farewell assembly. Tried, but all that came out was just drops of tears.
Surprisingly, the tears were more intense when i was in class together with classmates taking the report book. I looked around the class in my seat.
I kept thinking, why didn't i apologise to that person then, why did i showed that bad attitude to that person then, why didn't i help that person when he/she needs more help then, why didn't i put in more effort to socialise with classmates so that my existence will be regconised with shared memories then.
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And Yew Hwang kept rubbing in and said that , "EH, Jack-san, this is you last chance already, go be a man and ask for her hand !"
Then tears dropped more rapidly. Even Yifang had to tell me don't cry yet, the assembly hasn't started yet.
Damn it.
I wonder why. It seems like i have problems reading farewell
notes. Quite a number of the classmates gave farewell notes to everyone in class.
Then i don't feel quite well when i read them in class. But it seems like Edna's one was good...
After the Farewell assembly where we all packed the area outside the hall, i saw some of classmates and friends crying, yeah their eyes red and all.
This time it really made me sad.
But i had to brace myself to look good so that i can get myself ready to ask C for the honour to take a photo with her together.
Yes, i really said it was an honour. I asked her ," May I have the honour to take a photo with you?"
Fortunately, she said yes.
After that i had to go to the canteen to sit because i couldn't stand anymore, my legs felt soft and they were trembling then. I couldn't believe it took so much of me to just ask C for that honour.
And finally, it was another mass photo-taking session at the foyer, and parade square. Brings back memories ( and more importantly, regrets ) when i joined the 2/3 '06 people to take a photo, but it was quite incomplete though.
But i think i kinda regret not joining 2/3 '06 people in their "last supper" at some restaurant because i had English tuition. Oh, my goodness am i so stone-hearted till i am willing to give up being together with those guys for a $30 tuiton lesson.
Alright, i am sorry that this blog post was abit disorganised. Because my thoughts are also disorganised, since much mental power is being taken away from me when i asked C that "million-dollar question"...
It's time to really cry by watching Gundam SEED episode 40...
Till tomorrow then. Oh and lastly, where can i get my hands on that 4/3 video presentation that was played at the Farewell assembly today?
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
