Fate
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 ' 12:25 PM
EDIT !!! AT 5.17pm : I just finished watching the anime Kamichama Karin. Now it's time to study ! Till midnight maybe..
edit... at 2.24pm... : ARGH Thomman called me an hour ago. He said he knew of this blog's existence. I wondered how he found out. Did someone tell him? Or did he prowl in the shadows and searched undercover? Oh, and i changed the order of songs on playlist at the side a little. So that it suits my mood. (When i feel like screaming and shouting i put GOD DIVA first. When i feel agony i would put "regret" first.)
I don't really know how to narrate today's story. I am distraught and i can't channel my thoughts well. Distraught is the word of the day.
Oh and today's post is gonna be VERY very emo. I don't why i feel this way. But, i am C-nile after all. So if you don't want to recieve my Sadness, skip till after the second long line of *s.
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( oops, too late i edited and removed this part today, which is 15 Oct, because this part of the post might give people the wrong idea.)
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Here's something lighter from me to share. I set C's picture as my wallpaer in my creative Zen. Then in the bus whenever i looked at that picture i would find myself laughing to myself. There was this girl sitting beside me in the bus seat. It seems like after many rounds of me laughing to myself , that girl couldn't take it and went to sit with another stranger. Then seats around me start to vacant.
Oh shit, am i becoming too extreme and gone-case already?
I wonder how i would react when i saw THAT photo tomorrow when Dinie sends it to me tonight, since i already had such, violent, reaction already when i just see C's solo picture only.
Oh, and don't ask me how i got C's picture. If you asked, then you would remind me of someone's blog. ( Not Joel's one, so relax, Joel.)
Which also reminds me, i still feel distraught now. I think i should do a self-reflection ( no, not by using a mirror ) so that i can concentrate and continue to mug and probably learn something new in Geography.
I remembered Dinie wrote in his sms to me that asked ," Oh ya, why C ar? XD ".
Well, at that time i don't know how to answer Dinie's question.
Because if that could be explained and analysed by me, then i wouldn't be so crazy now.
And that's what i told Dinie.
Currently, coffee is my best friend. I seems to be the last to sleep and first to wake in my family. But then it doesn't seem to be that effective as all that i revised don't seem to sink in, and i got stucked in that Anderson A.maths paper2 Q5 , Q6, Q7 and Q8 for 45 minutes each, and i didn't realise it was my careless mistake.
But Q8 is different i think.
And yes Dinie, patience is virtue. I will wait. My motto is "All Forseen Theory" after all.
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
