Yeah, i know, i know. I am just too much right?

Seriously, i don't know what exactly 'Murphy' is planning. Lol. He told me SOMETHING serious and major just before the O LEVEL essay writing yesterday. And it kinda affected my mood for the exam. But i think it isn't as simple as that. There is a hidden, more sinister and sophisticated higher level plot behind all this, something that i don't know about. And both of you ( 'Murphy' and another person ) are just trying to accomodate me right?

Right?

However i think it's best for me not to know anything lest terrible things that can make me commmit suicide are made known to me.

Or maybe i am thinking too much again. Yeah, this is what i get for cooping myself in my own room and study all day. I seriously cannot flunk today's paper, it is my best subject and i definitely cannot lose !!! (Lose to myself i mean.)


Joel, you are right.


But isn't it great that the English Paper, the hardest and scariest of all the subjects is finally out of our minds until when we get our results in January? The next hard one will be the Humanities. A C !!! 5 will be enough already i guess.






C !!!!

I saw her again yesterday outside the hall before the Paper 1. It was QUITE disheartening to see her using her file to cover ( her hair ? ) in my direction while walking past.
But, "pretending i don't know" is one of my specialty. Anyway, this isn't that significant as compared to "RejeCtion" that i may face in the near future.

And the situation improved quite a little for me while waiting for the Paper 2 in the evening outside the hall. The guys' group was just opposite C's girls' group.
I got to see faint images of C. Faint though. But it was enough.
I saw... an image of a goddess ( no, don't think Buddhism) ... truely a fresh new look... and definitely she looks like Saya. I can picture her sword already.



Saya.





While waiting for the Paper 2, i saw Yanloon standing alone at a corner there.
( It's different from me, i stand at the corner there for a reason)
I wondered why isn't Yanloon being with his usual group? Like Calvin and Joel.
The answer to this might be formed in my head already, but then it might be regarded as "No Link" if i wrote it down here.





Oh, and i can tell that people are seriously studying already. I saw my own blog stats.











When you see blood and a knife together, you might think that i cut myself with a knife as i was engaging in self-mutilation because i cannot handle all the stress and failures and used tissue to clean up the blood....

But the fact is, my nose bleed again last night as i kept having pictures of the Goddess in my mind. The Goddess as in the one mentioned a few paragraphs ago. ( And no, don't think Buddhism again, think japanese anime.)
Then i used the fake knife to stop the bloody tissue from flying away.

Damn, i seriously need some more self-control, or rather mind-control. Lol.


One last thing, "kami" means hair , and can also mean god or goddess. Goddess and hair, yeah..

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Ceteris Paribus
Coffee
Cynic
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Currently hooked on classical Touhou music arranges from TAMusic. Seriously, they are awesome.


Ayayayaya ~

Touhou Fan.


Listens mostly to Touhou doujin music

(Because the creator of Touhou (ZUN) is damn talented, his BGM for the game series are godly, including the game series he made itself, and hence many dedicated groups of musicians do arranges of his original BGM)

("Arranges" are one level higher than "covers")


Very Japanese-oriented, absolutely not Korean-crazy like the crowd out there

Watches Japanese anime



Wants to do, learn and try many, many things, but finds it hard to find the time, commitment, and energy to do all of that


Life is short, and i want mine to be especially so











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