Oriental

I THINK I KNOW WHAT'S GOING on

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 ' 2:57 PM

The previous post today you see below now before this post is kinda, special in format.

Right now, i still can't figure out this ominous thought that i have since morning, which also makes me "lose my passion". And this ominous thought still exist now.

Oh my Goddess ! Someone tell me what i should do now !!!

This morning, i felt weak on my knees. My legs and arms are trembling, and i fell onto the floor. It seems that Sadness has once again taken control of me. As i was sprawled on the cold hard floor, i thought hard of why did Sadness overwhelm me. But i failed to do so. And those optimistic and bright element of my mind seemed to have disappeared into the void. I can't bring myself to smile anymore, like i did when i visit blogs. I struggled, and i reached for my own blog. Then, i recalled what my aim was. My aim... was to engage in self-deception, and smile with a C. My objective is to regard all negative ideas as a ploy, as a deterrent that wanted to generate schism in my own mind and discourage me from continuing what i had been doing, especially in this blog. Now, i just want to get sucked into an empty void where no mortal resides and scream like some opera Diva and hope i can receive more Courage and Emotional qualities in return.

If i already feel like that after just 4 days of Cold turkey, and also after just receiving shocks from blogs, then i wonder how i would fare after the 12th of October.

Well, anyway, i am feeling much better now.

Yesterday, i went to some Chinese restaurant to have dinner with my family.

And i thought of wearing what you see above. But, they don't seem to match. Maybe because i don't like denim blue jeans? So, i changed to a-bit-shorter-than-3-quarter pants instead.

Well, that's the only picture of food there that i could take, because the phone's battery became 2D. But at the top left hand corner that white white thing is probably the best of all the dishes. It is a crispy chicken wrapped with some thingy and topped with super sweet mayonaise. And i love sweet things.
We can say that the simplest dish could probably be the best dish. I can't help but pick up the super sweet mayonaise with my chopsticks and suck it like some small kid repeatedly, because that is the only food that taste sweet there.

Oh and also about the black black thing beside the watermelon is the coffee ribs. And when i tasted it, i start to shiver a bit because the coffee taste is just too strong. But that sure is some bitter coffee taste and isn't anything like CappuCino or latte.

Overall, the food there is just ok-ok only, and it costed 150 bucks for 4 people. What a waste of money, i'd rather just spend 10 bucks eating at PEPPER LUNcH where i can empty the whole bottle of pepper and honey sauce into my plate to enjoy the rich taste.

Try and guess what emotion i am trying to show.

I took a photo of myself ( which is the one you see above ) before i went out to Hougang Mall. After i waxed my hair i realised how scary my hair is : The lines are well-defined, and the shape is more impressive usual. But then, all that is destroyed when i put on my headphone and also when the very strong winds that frequent the hougang area messed my hair up.

I walked past the "Chamelon" female accessory shop again in Hougang Mall today. I kept staring at that cute pink hairband that i talked about a few days ago. This time, i felt my own power to restrain myself weakening. Fortunately, my legs are more obedient and carried me to the Popular bookstore there. This time, i wasted $15.50 to buy blank dvd discs so that i can burn anime into it to watch when my brother is using the computer at weekends and public holidays.

Right now, i am tearing my hair off ( not literally though ) on guessing which format and codec can work on my dvd player. And it isn't working too good.

Oh, and on a side note, let me scream something :

"Ah hahahahahaha i downloaded a picture of C wearing her pair of black spectacles !!"

I am amazed at my own ability to self-control already. The fact that i only downloaded 1 out of so many of C's pictures that i found is already very commendable for me.

Ah !!

*falls to the floor and trying to catch my breath in vain*

Oh My Goddess !!! Finally, i smiled again. Somehow, i had forgotten what i am brooding about in this post earlier.

But of course, i had not forgotten about the situation that i am facing now.

Oh and i was watching some random episodes of School Rumble.
Oh and Akira is still my favourite !!

Here's a snapshot :

The girl with brown hair is the one.

And she looks very very similar to C, don't you think so?

Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless