ONE ; All Foreseen Theory
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 ' 5:34 PM
MAJOR EDIT AT 6.43pm : I just realised you can't see the title of the posts with this blog skin !!
So the title for today will be : ONE ; All Foreseen Theory
Yeah, there are 2 titles for today's post. Try and figure out the second one.
Oh i just got a shock, just now i couldn't log in to blogger. They said my email address address don't exist. Oh my goodness. So i went to change password. It sorta worked.
Just had a fun conversation with Zikai about Zikai saying Google being hacked was due to cyberterrorism as i told him about my logging in scare just now. But i am not going to elaborate on the talk, as it was quite er, futuristic. At least i know he is gonna be an counter-hacker, or counter-terrorist, cyber-terrorism that is...
Just an interesting quote from Zikai : "Friends" is like peeing on yourself; everybody can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings.
Quite... interesting metaphor isn't it?
Oh my goodness, ONE more day, just ONE more day left. I thought of buying a pair of binoculars today, but i heard from TingKang that a non-toy version is expensive, and hard to get. I guess i need to join mine and TingKang's table to Adil/Meixin 's table for that LAST day to see C in classroom ever again.
Oh, i can feel the impact on me already. Heart palpitations, irregular breathing, uncontrolled smiling. And it is already felt in class today. I am glad no one noticed.
Yes, TingKang, i will read C's Bio answer out every day, every start of the day, before breakfast, before lunch, before dinner, and before i sleep.
LOL.
I know i don't dare to say anything to C at the Farewell assembly. But maybe i will if there is some form of stimulus, like Kaisheng saying out loud ," EH, Jack-san don't you have anything to say to someone???"
Not that i want him to do that though, i will faint before i can finish pronouncing her name in front of her. Dinie and Joel already experimented it out in maths class today.
Speaking of maths class, the Band 4 people had canadian pizzas for afternoon tea after our maths Extended.C.
(I called it "Extended.C" because my joy of being captivated by C is extended by 1 hour.)
I picked a slice of pizza and went to stand near where Sandman was.
AND i thoroughly enjoyed that slice of pizza because C was standing right opposite of me 2 horizontal tables away. I don't know why C isn't sitting down, though it is a good thing that she didn't sit down and face away.
Nevertheless i got to see the way C ate her pizza, and also forgetting to eat my own pizza properly in the process.
However it was kinda shortlived because i felt my heart beating irregularly from all the mental stimulation and wasn't feeling too well after io finished my second slice. So i went to some quiet place to calm myself down, but shortened my time spent watching C eat at the same time...
After i came back, i saw Mark Ang and 2/3 classmates coming, oh and DICKSON too.
I can't bear to continue watching, because of a large variety of reasons...
So i went to have a 5-man orgy ( i heard from someone in class that orgy sounds like Audrey, LOL,i think Kaisheng said it... ) under Julian's umbrella.
And fate had brought me on the same bus ride with DishEng home after that. This time, Yanling was also on the bus.
I can't believe DishEng really told Yanling who C was.
But i am surprised she gave a surprised look. So the person tagging wasn't her?
Oh, i was wrong again.
I thought someone had said to me that, "EH, everybody knows about your blog already lah !"
So, C must have known about this too... Oh, man. What will i do??
DishEng told me that i should confess to C at the Farewell assembly on friday.
I gave it a deep thought, and replied him that, what will i do after i confess?? And what will happen after my confession? How is her reaction going to be?? Is she going to throw a netball at my face and scream ," GO AWAY you PERVERTED STALKER, my heart belongs to Somebody else already !!" ??
So, i decided i won't do such rash moves and regret it later.
Oh yeah, i heard from Trikstrohs a few days ago that she had a picture of C doing a cute pose with both her hands doing that gun pointing thingy and making a cute face.
Trikstrohs doing that pose isn't cute at all, for your information.
OH MAN I WISHED i had the courage to ask Trikstrohs for more information about that photo. But then it will be too obvious already.
And i heard that C isn't going to Grad Night. I kinda knew before hand that she isn't going because i think i dreamt 2 months about C wanting to say something to me. Then i ran out of the classroom for no reason and came back. Then i think in my dream she said that she isn't going to the Grad Night.
That's really, really sad. I can't have that final moments anymore..... My final moment will be at the last day of the O level exams, which is the chemistry mcqs.
I listened to "Changin'" at my playlist just now. I can't believe i dropped a tear when i heard that song. I thought i like changes. But in the end, i can't bear to graduate and not see C anymore. It will be pure luck if we got into the same institution or same course after graduation.
ARGH i am going to die. I went to look at Joel's blog and i saw that class photo we took after our class drama. Brings back memmories. Especially when classmates styled her hair beside the seat i was seating. I kinda wanted thay moment to not stop. But i think it will feel kinda awkward if i continued to remain at my seat.
AND I CAN'T find myself at the picture ! Oh, was i the "Black Guy"???
Thanks Joel anyway.
Oh, C~ ... Oh...
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
