Misunderstandings, they screw lives. You'd just need to move on and forget about it so it won't shorten your life if you can't find ways to address the misunderstanding. That's my stand.

And yes i am evil and scheming, so i'd make use of my blog to achieve my purposes, like addressing stuff.


Sometime ago i mentioned something about this anti-social guy in class. I take back what i said. I give my apologies to any readers who would feel offended by that post or if you are the parties concerned.
Over the course of this period of months i discovered, learnt, know and realised and have a broader perspective over things ( i think). And i realised i might also be showing these unfriendly actions to people too.
I might some reasons or another i don't know, though i am not sure of the person whom i mentioned some time ago.






In more recent times, there is also another issue bugging me and probably some of my closer classmates too.
Maybe i am an exhibitionist, so i will tell you briefly what happened from my perspective. Since it's by my perspective, tell me if you find it biased or something.

It started from this outing around town with some classmates to eat, watch movie and walk and talk.
Then there is an innocent question from one of us (female) asking about what first impressions we had about our classmates.
I won't touch on how that question might have malicious intent, but most likely it's just another innocent question.

Then everybody started saying their first impressions. You might want to take note of the word "first".

And now, my intuition kicks in. I saw one classmate looking with a strange facial expression just as when we were talking about a particular person in class. (Well though there's still the possibility of me thinking too much)

And from here on the next couple of days that particular person (i'll label him as P, stands for Particular person, not anything else that starts with P as much as i want to say it) starts to behave strangely with us the usual guys. And finally he made an indirect declaration to distance away from us, in classroom seats etc.
So something is wrong here. My intuition tells me someone among our group told him about the comments made about P that day. And my intuition tells me it's that classmate whom i saw made a strange facial expression on that First Impression session we had, particularly when i saw P and that classmate still have relationships going fine.


I mentioned intuition a lot of times, so it might not really be true, by judging from his character when he made excuses and slacked for project work and from my racism and from opinions from some people, it might be possible that it's him.

And yes i am evil and scheming, to hide behind blog and point fingers. But i won't confront him anyway, because obviously this is an allegation with no proof, and because it's so easy to deny it anyway, and because things will escalate in many ways if i told him that.


At the moment when i came to this conclusion that he might be the culprit, anger was the most immediate emotion. I was going around like, " FUCK YOU YOU BACKSTABBED US YOU BETRAYED US etc " and cursed him (not directly).

I was researching many ways on how to stab him in the back 5 times worse and get back at him.


But, now when i come to think about it, it's rational to tell a friend about what things classmates had said about him, and his values/conscience/morals/guilt told him to do it.
(Though if i am feeling mean now i would say ironically for someone like him)



BUT NOTHING HAS CHANGED THE FACT THAT IT CAUSE SO MUCH TROUBLE FOR ME.
I am evil and scheming, so all these morals i don't really bother to think much, but this is still a problem.


And no i won't apologise to P or anything to get relationships back to normal. Because i dare say i am not the one who said bad things about P during that First Impression session. Don't put words in my mouth.
And i am still a little pissed off at P's attitude though, despite how enlightened i am at this incident. I don't intend to get relationships back to normal. For an evil me, i'd say "You think you want go then go, want come then come is it? Don't fuck with me."


This is my stand unless you can convince me to take another stand.

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Currently hooked on classical Touhou music arranges from TAMusic. Seriously, they are awesome.


Ayayayaya ~

Touhou Fan.


Listens mostly to Touhou doujin music

(Because the creator of Touhou (ZUN) is damn talented, his BGM for the game series are godly, including the game series he made itself, and hence many dedicated groups of musicians do arranges of his original BGM)

("Arranges" are one level higher than "covers")


Very Japanese-oriented, absolutely not Korean-crazy like the crowd out there

Watches Japanese anime



Wants to do, learn and try many, many things, but finds it hard to find the time, commitment, and energy to do all of that


Life is short, and i want mine to be especially so











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