Okay i am back for some blogging once again. I have not been blogging these few weeks, probably because basically i am lazy.


More importantly, recently i kinda feel... you know, tired of living.


However even though i finally updated, it does not necessarily mean i don't feel tired of life anymore. In fact, today's probably the worst day ever because of my flu and i think it's gonna spiral downwards even more tomorrow, the day after and so on.


"Tired of living", this term is kinda vague and complicated. It's kinda like, i feel my life is boring, there's little meaning in life nowadays.


There's hardly anything that excites me, i want something positively interesting to happen. I don't know how much longer i can stand in this jc life in a school like TPJC.



I think this is some emo or depression period for me, and almost every single thing i see pisses me off, but of course i'll still try my best to be nice. But i'll still have a super disgruntled look hanging on my face.


I won't apologise for that lol.








Oh, i think "jaded" can be used to describe quite accurately about the feeling i have now.


A step closer towards maturity?







Oh anyway, don't worry i won't do anything like commiting suicide or emulate those high school shootings like those in the west (I personally do not really like the west though).


Why?


Because if i really do kill, those "nonsensical" media like The Newpaper (actually i don't really want to put capitals in this name of the newspaper as i do not really have respect for it) will, in my opinion, do their usual stuff of mixing in unnecessary additional stuff just to make their article emotional and appeal to readers who want the illusion of the existence of interesting things happening in their mundane lives.

And i think this will distort facts in many ways.


I don't want them to write false stuff about me and make me appear as one of those generic stereotypical emo kids if i ever were to appear in one of their article.


At least this is the impression that The Newpaper and that Sin Ming chinese newspaper give me, that they are purveyors of falsehood to some extent.


Don't sue me for defamation though. I am not really saying The Newpaper is a scam, i am just saying about the impression that it has on me.










And i think i can write compre passages for Cambridge lol.












Well at least life has not totally turn its back on me.



Some time ago, for the first time, i managed to clear Normal mode of Touhou 7 without using any "Continues" (i.e. 1 Credit Clear , abbreviated as 1CC), and also yesterday i 1CC-ed, also for the first time, Touhou 8. Plus i tried my hands on the Extra Stage of Touhou 8, though i didn't survive that carnage, i managed to capture 1 spellcard from the Extra Stage boss. ("Capture" means to decrease the boss' health without myself dying or using a bomb till she stops using her current pattern of attacks. Sounds easy, but no it isn't for harder difficulties and for Extra Stage.)


But apparently, Touhou 8 is the easiest of the Windows Touhou game series ( i.e. from 6 onwards).




Still, it's a progress for someone like me. And this feeling is wonderful.








Alright i am gonna conclude this blog post. There's some biology test tomorrow morning. I am not interested.

And after that, there is some crap sports meet in school in the afternoon after curriculum lessons until 6.30pm.

A total waste of my time.

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Ceteris Paribus
Coffee
Cynic
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Currently hooked on classical Touhou music arranges from TAMusic. Seriously, they are awesome.


Ayayayaya ~

Touhou Fan.


Listens mostly to Touhou doujin music

(Because the creator of Touhou (ZUN) is damn talented, his BGM for the game series are godly, including the game series he made itself, and hence many dedicated groups of musicians do arranges of his original BGM)

("Arranges" are one level higher than "covers")


Very Japanese-oriented, absolutely not Korean-crazy like the crowd out there

Watches Japanese anime



Wants to do, learn and try many, many things, but finds it hard to find the time, commitment, and energy to do all of that


Life is short, and i want mine to be especially so











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