Oriental

Saturday, July 31, 2010 ' 9:51 PM

It all started with a queue in the canteen for food, and maybe also a cheerful heart. But it ended with bloodshed.

Why? What's the link?

Probably tensions were high and taut due to this stuff that i often quote and complain that because of a recent change generated by TPJC's heartless timetable software, from 8am to 5pm of curriculum lessons on thursdays, there is only a small little pathetic break of 9am to 9.30am. Maybe add another 15-20minutes for the math teacher kind enough to take some of her lesson time to grant us a short lunch break at 1.35pm.

In short that thurday was, to speak in popular jargon, "Cui", especially when (i had already told you in the previous post that) i only had less than an hour of sleep that previous night.

Ok back to the main story.

But wait, i wasn't even clear of the unfortunate event that happened on thursday, according to a certain someone whom i had argued with on a certain website and at the same time trying to figure out ways of debating, arguing, and influencing. (Apparently it failed though.)

Indeed i might have no full knowledge.

How could we 4 apparently dumb guys ever knew the simple act of jumping queue on a high-tension thursday morning can cause so much of a backlash and so much of a strong reaction from some female classmates involved who were queuing at the same stall.

And because of this "ungentlemanly" act we committed as one of them claimed, the girls left the queue in anger halfway joined another queue which was likely to be inferably longer.

And apparently some couldn't finish the food in time and one starved till afternoon or evening.

"Because of you, ** didn't get to eat", said some girl.

Now those 9 words are disturbing. Label me as a misogynist or a bastard, but i fail to comprehend how one couldn't have enough time to buy food when there is a delay of 4 times 30-35 seconds because of the jumping of queue, and on top of that, i don't think that half hour break was even half gone at that time.

Ok i won't deny the possibility of this fact being skewered because of my crippled ability for judgement due to lack of sleep.

But more importantly, i personally don't aspire to be a gentleman or the like in school. I don't see the importance, especially in a setting like a school and even TPJC.

You'd say, my behaviour is a reflection of my morals and values or character as a person. But no. Morals and values are something much higher and it'll be overkill to equate jumping of queue to all that.
And no don't mention about the consequence of a girl starving because of all this; refer to my (selfishly logical, if you insist) argument 3 paragraphs before.

Besides, at that time after this unfortunate incident happened, there was some solemn atmosphere in the guys' dining table as if one of us was involved in a grave accident or was gravely injured by a down-burst uprooting a tree and made it crash on us.

We realised we could have gone too far in a moment of folly.

And one of us actually went to apologise to the female party involved and wanted to make amendments.

Apparently he was rejected. OK i recognize that probably females have some form of pride in the form of tempers or whatever term or adjective used to describe the cliche abstract idea of females being something mysterious.
But we see the situation like that we also sian already.

What can we do to salvage this sticky situation?

If it still persist when the next week starts, it's gonna be a problem as the gravity of guilt is gonna affect studies and quality of school life, like how i, the selfish bastard, might start to suspect and speculate that some invidious mastermind is actually pulling the strings in pumping in guilt like some ATP-dependent transmembrane pump in the cell and dividing the class/sexes by influencing others with her words as if she was some protease.

But of course it ain't gonna be true. I am just thinking too much as usual..... well, unless i haven't learn the lesson of naivety.

Anyway, from my own limited and sometimes biased experience, i expect some bitching about me or us to take place by certain females, and it might even be ironic.

If it really happens and i happen to get wind of it happening, i'll be very, very disappointed , much disappointed than i am now.

Actually, to be honest, i don't have enough emotional maturity, as seen from how i write this blog post. I have much more to learn.

So for now, i am the myopic retard who can't fathom how small things like a queue can be sensationalised to such an extent as we might have thought.

On a side note, i am ironically also the myopic retard who shuns other myopic retards who can't appreciate things, who can't put themselves in others' shoes, and who keep making fun of people and strangers around for simple reasons like looks.

Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless