Friday, November 12, 2010 ' 2:55 PM
A week of A level examinations had just passed.
And i felt like killing myself already. I didn't manage to awaken from my senses and grasp every single precious minute to study and practise.
Wasted a lot of time, and i don't think i can get all As and Bs for all subjects. Such grades are very essential, as preached many times by many teachers about the horrific truth that "No As, no Uni; No As, you're finished".
And of course this isn't exaggeration, when foreigners who make up almost half of the Singapore population are here to steal everything away from us, thanks to our awesome Men In White in the government earning awesome amounts of salary.
(Sorry but i am in a very depressed mood now.)
I know about the sorry state of things in Singapore now, and i wanted to do what i can to invoke change, reform and amelioration. But to do that, i feel, i need to be an elite myself first ironically, judging from the current trend of elitism now, and get recognised especially by the ignorant and inert people.
But it won't happen. I lost the chance for the first step to be an elite this week.
Plus the first step to my future as well.
Oh. Why don't i sell my soul and heart and go join and suck my way up to the current ruling party?? Most of the ministers get to earn shitload of money while doing virtually nothing constructive to Singapore and native Singaporeans.
One of them even managed to get away with mistakes and blunders by letting a lame terrorist (both pun and no pun intended) get away, and can still blame Singaporean citizens for being "complacent".
In Soviet Russu... NOT. In Pappy Singapore, the gahmen screws you.
A brief analysis of how bad i fared:
For the GP essay the sports question was the only one that i could write about, but unfortunately i didn't expect the sports question to come out and did not prepare for it though i was repeatedly warned by teachers about it. (apparently sports questions come in periodic cycles). And i know from experience and feel that i won't score well after reading what i wrote.
And the comprehension was worse. I did not manage to expend my fullest potential in the AQ.
So much for all the efforts i put in for GP in my 2-year career as a jc student. All the 30, 33, 34, 35 and 36 marks out of 50 essays i had achieved are meaningless. Come to think of it, i was always amazed at myself and wondered how did i actually manage to write out such awesome pieces of work.
Then i know, it's because they weren't completed within the suffocating 1 and a half hour time frame which serve against education's purpose by crippling a student's fullest potential.
One might comfort me about all the enlightenment and satori i experienced in the course of learning GP. But it's all naught in this elitism-ridden society especially when employers want either that awesome paper qualification or that "foreign "talent"" status.
Chemistry paper 3. Let's not talk about it. It's retarded. Cambridge spelled my favourite food incorrectly.
Mathematics paper 1 and 2. I got seriously depressed starting from yesterday night when i checked my paper 1 answers from a web page link typed by one Facebook comment on a status of an acquaintance.
Paper 1 was an easy paper. But yet i still got at least 35 marks worth of marks taken away. It's absolutely unforgivable. So much so that i should commit seppuku/harakiri. But it'll do an injustice to the honorable samurai code if i were to do it just because of a dumb education system.
And i even told myself that i will work extra hard after paper 1 after i get home yesterday to prepare for paper 2 since paper 1 is easy and all the elites won't face trouble doing it.
But i wasted most of my time daydreaming.
And today, i got screwed with paper 2.
I should screw myself. Literally??
Sleep with the trauma that kept you sleepless
